Help Needed

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23.

This is a verse that we all know. We all use it to help someone out when they are struggling with a problem within themselves. But, we never seem to remember it for ourselves. This means I have fallen short. I sin. I blow it. I need help! These are very hard words for some, myself included. We think that if we ask for help, we are admitting weakness. Well, in a way, that's right, but not in the way that we tend to think. It is humanly impossible to not be weak. We all have fallen short of the glory of God. We all sin. We all need help. The help that we need is in Jesus Christ alone.

This is why I've decided to go to school for Biblical Counseling. I have struggled my whole entire life. I always told myself that I had to be strong. I didn't have time to cry. Couldn't allow myself to be weak. Then one day, I couldn't take it any longer. The person who never cried, was crying all the time. I couldn't handle life because I had pushed so many things down that there was no more room to push anything down. But this life is hard. Things kept coming and I had no where left to push them. Finally, I had to admit defeat. It was the most freeing thing ever! Someone was there for me to help me see that I needed God's help and nothing else was going to last. The only true healing has to come from Him. I still struggle. As I said, this life is hard. But He has healed the past hurts and when they return, I need to give them right back to Him and remind myself that He has already dealt with them and move on. Now I must move forward with this truth.

For we  know that God works all things together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

 I love that I am able to take my hurts and use them for someone else's benefit! All by the grace of God, this verse truly comes to life. It almost makes it worth it to have gone through such pain if it can help someone else out of their pain.  I want to help show people that He is there and wants to heal our pain. To take away our sadness. So many people ask "Why God" but the answer is so that we will come to Him. I want to help people go to Him. To show them that while the hurt is always going to be there, we can deal with it and move on. We don't have to stuff it down and try to forget it. While we can forget things for a while, they always come back up and it just makes things worse.

When I told someone that I was going back to college, they asked what I was going for. When I answered Biblical Counseling, she said "oh, is there a lot of job openings for that?" Funny thing is, I hadn't even thought of that. I know worldly scholars will tell you that you should choose a field that has a bunch of job openings, but it just never crossed my mind. I know that this is what God has called me to do. I know that He has blessed this journey. I know that He will take care of it from here. That's all I need to know. He is in control.